These last few springs have been Such a Big Deal. I used to hate spring and high summer so much, but now I like them because I can embrace their energy of growth better than I used to. Not that I claim to be growing, but I am certainly not against growth as much I used to be.
I've learned a lot more about my anger. I revisited the past like I normally do, but found out I was still extremely angry about a lot of it. But that should not have been news to me. I've never stopped complaining about some of this stuff.
When you are surprised to find out something you've always known, is it still a surprise?
I knew that I needed to do releasing to heal, so I'm like "Okay so I need to release the anger already."
But now this realization: anger is an ingredient in the process; it's not the wound. It's the cleansing agent, not the grime. It's just like our other emotions - shining a light on the state of things. In the body, the liver is nature's drain filter. Anger is the slick bile doing its job of detoxifying me, the liver of my life.
Rest, Then Take a Nap
If I could describe the energy of May for creativity, it would be to remind myself to keep craft time as light, funny, in flow, and unproductive as possible. Quick sketches, big messes, half-started ideas, terrible disorganization, whatever feels fun, only what comes easy .... those are the best because it means you aren't doing any work. Because working with what you're working with all day, you need a big break.
